“We’re Still Family” Excerpt
No Easy Answers –
Why the Popular View of Divorce Is Wrong“Everyday meat and potato truth is beyond
our ability to capture in a few words.”
~ Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird
Next in the grand parade came the best man, one of the groom’s three brothers. Proudly, he made his way down the aisle and took his position, ready to be at his brother’s side. Then the two maids of honor, looking lovely in their flowing black chiffon gowns, made their appearance. My grandchildren started to wiggle and whisper: “It’s Aunt Amy [my younger daughter]! And Christine [the longtime girlfriend who cohabits with Uncle Craig, my daughters’ half-brother]!” As they walked down the aisle and moved slowly past us, special smiles were exchanged with my grandchildren — their nieces and nephew.
Seconds later, my youngest granddaughter pointed excitedly, exclaiming, “Here comes Mommy!” They waved excitedly as the next member of the bridal party, the matron of honor — their mother, my daughter — made her way down the path. She paused briefly at our row to exchange a fleeting greeting with her children.
Next, the groom, soon officially to be their “Uncle Andrew,” with his mother’s arm linked on his left, and his father on his right. The happy threesome joined the processional. Divorced from each other when Andrew was a child, his parents beamed in anticipation of the marriage of their eldest son.
Silence. All heads now turned to catch their first glimpse of the bride. Greeted with oohs and aahs, Aunt Jennifer was radiant as she walked arm in arm with her proud and elegant mother, their stepgrandmother, Grandma Susan. Sadly missed at that moment was the father of the bride, my former husband, who had passed away a few years earlier.
When I told friends in California I was flying to the East Coast for a family wedding, I stumbled over how to explain my relationship to the bride. To some I explained: “She’s my exhusband’s daughter by his second wife.” To others, perhaps to be provocative and draw attention to the lack of kinship terms, I said, “She’s my daughters’ sister.” Of course, technically she’s my daughters’ half-sister, but many years ago my daughters told me firmly that that term “half-sister” was utterly ridiculous. Jennifer wasn’t a half anything, she was their real sister. Some of my friends thought it strange that I would be invited; others thought it even stranger that I would travel cross-country to attend.
The wedding reception brought an awkward moment or two, when some of the groom’s guests asked a common question, “How was I related to the bride?” With some guilt at violating my daughters’ dictum, but not knowing how else to identify our kinship, I answered, “She is my daughters’ half-sister.” A puzzled look. It was not that they didn’t understand the relationship, but it seemed strange to them that I was a wedding guest. As we talked, a few guests noted how nice it was that I was there, and then with great elaboration told me stories about their own complex families. Some told me sad stories of families torn apart by divorce and remarriage, and others related happy stories of how their complex families of divorce had come together at family celebrations.
At several points during this celebratory day, I happened to be standing next to the bride’s mother when someone from the groom’s side asked us how we were related. She or I pleasantly answered, “We used to be married to the same man.” This response turned out to be a showstopper. The question asker was at a loss to respond. First and second wives aren’t supposed to be amicable or even respectful toward one another. And certainly, first wives are not supposed to be included in their exhusband’s new families. And last of all, first and second wives shouldn’t be willing to comfortably share the information of having a husband in common.
Although it may appear strange, my exhusband’s untimely death brought his second and first families closer together. I had mourned at his funeral and spent time with his family and friends for several days afterward. A different level of kinship formed, as we — his first and second families — shared our loss and sadness. Since then, we have chosen to join together at several family celebrations, which has added a deeper dimension to our feelings of family.
You may be thinking, “This is all so rational. There’s no way my family could pull this off.” Or perhaps, like the many people who have shared their stories with me over the years, you are nodding your head knowingly, remembering similar occasions in your own family. The truth is we are like many extended families rearranged by divorce. My ties to my exhusband’s family are not close but we care about one another. We seldom have contact outside of family occasions, but we know we’re family. We hear stories of each other’s comings and goings, transmitted to us through our mutual ties to my daughters, and now, through grandchildren. But if many families, like my own, continue to have relationships years after divorce, why don’t we hear more about them?
The foregoing is excerpted from We’re Still Family by Constance Ahrons. All rights reserved. For permission to use or reproduce, please contact HarperCollins Publishers, 10 East 53rd Street, New York, NY 10022